Hmm .. I guess is good that being blur. Too sensitive to everything actually is bad. Leads me to sad all the time .. non stop get myself busy to get those bad thoughts outta my mind. Getting tired of thinking bad stuff and so on, non stop having nitemares nowadays .. dream bout this and that .. for some of my fren actually noe that I hate to dream ..
Sometimes I really admire at ppl that having a good listener when they need it. When they sad .. when they not happy, there is sure thing will have someone to share with them. Nice rite .. Is alwiz nice when u haf someone to share it with you.. I noe that .. coz m a good listener as well .. and yeah .. there is some ppl willing to share with me when they not happy or happy .. the joy and the sorrows. Enjoy being that .. but that is only single duplex for me. A one way trip, a one way ticket. How I wish I could haf a person that can share it with me.. alrite .. dun tell me that Jesus and God .. I mean .. I want some physical answer ..an immediate reply .. no time delay in between. Is like .. tons of stuff in me .. sad or probs that I wish I could haf someone will listen to me. But guess. . I just irritate ppl ..
Years and years, day by day .. I getting more and more quiet than usual. Kinda lonely instead. But again .. with God I noe m not lonely and so on . but as I said .. some response .. an immediate response. When sometimes .. I really non stop saying "sorry" is coz I feel so so guilty .. no one will noes how I actually feel all the time. No one .. no one.. (God is exception k .. ). I dun mind ppl showing temper or blow up infront of me .. I will never mind to get hurt anymore .. I had alot .. and is kinda immune to me. Cry alone .. is not a new subject to me. Not even my family noes my probs .. or should I say ... they will never ever noe. How hurt is my knee is .. how hurt is my back is .. how terrible I feel .. they never care.. Even till now, when I not feeling well, I keep to myself.
No more tortoise can share my probs, they are the good listener .. just . .they kinda too quiet type. All they can do .. is give those pity eyes on me .. But mom force me to set my tortoise free, but I did not, under an agreement, both of them actually moved to Liz's house near a year by now.
U can't really blame a person for sad or anything .. I never come across a person that able to happy for 365 days.. That is closed to impossible to me.. and is almost impossible to me. Life is like a roller coaster .. up and down ..
"God .. I noe u are a good listener and with Your presense I wont be alone .. God .. I dun wish anything, I pray that You will send a person that can be a good listener for me .. A person that is willing to hear me .. "
Life .. getting no idea bout that .. is like too routine.. Somehow .. I do get tired of my life, looking tons of stuff I screwed up .. tons of stuff that is a mess. I non stop missing those good old days b4 those are spoiled. Feel sad .. feel sad .. real sad .. very sad ..
"God .. take this sadness away from me .. make me a happy person Lord .. even when comes to sad point .. Lord .. You will make me dun feel that bad .. send me a sign .. send me a butterfly Lord .."
Sometimes I really admire at ppl that having a good listener when they need it. When they sad .. when they not happy, there is sure thing will have someone to share with them. Nice rite .. Is alwiz nice when u haf someone to share it with you.. I noe that .. coz m a good listener as well .. and yeah .. there is some ppl willing to share with me when they not happy or happy .. the joy and the sorrows. Enjoy being that .. but that is only single duplex for me. A one way trip, a one way ticket. How I wish I could haf a person that can share it with me.. alrite .. dun tell me that Jesus and God .. I mean .. I want some physical answer ..an immediate reply .. no time delay in between. Is like .. tons of stuff in me .. sad or probs that I wish I could haf someone will listen to me. But guess. . I just irritate ppl ..
Years and years, day by day .. I getting more and more quiet than usual. Kinda lonely instead. But again .. with God I noe m not lonely and so on . but as I said .. some response .. an immediate response. When sometimes .. I really non stop saying "sorry" is coz I feel so so guilty .. no one will noes how I actually feel all the time. No one .. no one.. (God is exception k .. ). I dun mind ppl showing temper or blow up infront of me .. I will never mind to get hurt anymore .. I had alot .. and is kinda immune to me. Cry alone .. is not a new subject to me. Not even my family noes my probs .. or should I say ... they will never ever noe. How hurt is my knee is .. how hurt is my back is .. how terrible I feel .. they never care.. Even till now, when I not feeling well, I keep to myself.
No more tortoise can share my probs, they are the good listener .. just . .they kinda too quiet type. All they can do .. is give those pity eyes on me .. But mom force me to set my tortoise free, but I did not, under an agreement, both of them actually moved to Liz's house near a year by now.
U can't really blame a person for sad or anything .. I never come across a person that able to happy for 365 days.. That is closed to impossible to me.. and is almost impossible to me. Life is like a roller coaster .. up and down ..
"God .. I noe u are a good listener and with Your presense I wont be alone .. God .. I dun wish anything, I pray that You will send a person that can be a good listener for me .. A person that is willing to hear me .. "
Life .. getting no idea bout that .. is like too routine.. Somehow .. I do get tired of my life, looking tons of stuff I screwed up .. tons of stuff that is a mess. I non stop missing those good old days b4 those are spoiled. Feel sad .. feel sad .. real sad .. very sad ..
"God .. take this sadness away from me .. make me a happy person Lord .. even when comes to sad point .. Lord .. You will make me dun feel that bad .. send me a sign .. send me a butterfly Lord .."
::Listening to - Deliriou5? : Once Again ::
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